Feeling frustated today

I mean like, why did I even care whether she brings her uniform or not, u know today i planned to throw myself away for you, even that i know you didnt ask for it, but at least please know and appreciate my feeling by talk to me more, care for me, or at least ask me anything that would make me explain a lot.... I know it is selfish to ask people to consider your feeling, but I didn't ask in front of her, cause in fact, I dont want her to know, so maybe i will just bury it and dream about it. I think Im frustated cause i do adore her and care for her. P. s never post your complaints on FB or any other social media, it is not safe.